Driving Force

"...i want to be the car crash..." - snow patrol

okay, well living in LA ... that could very well happen.... but then it would get expensive with insurance crap and not that i want to potentially hurt someone either! well i want to be, just not LITERALLY ... it's a metaphor, damn it!
anyways, i am tired of having things happen to me ... tired of being the victim. i want to cause something (positive of course). i am a force to be reckoned with!

sorry, way too much caffeine consumption over the past 72-hours with 9.5 hours until my first midterm of the quarter. i feel a bit over my head right now as the past 2 weeks have been just NUTS. i forget the level of arrogance in ucla professors differs from smc. this one used the classic techniques of basically telling the class we were screwed. no! i refuse! (even though im not as prepared as i like ... still, that mental block can hinder so much...)

yesterday reinforced my need to do what is right for me and not for someone/thing else .... no settling here - i want more ... i deserve more because it's my life and no one else will demand it for me as much as i can.

my life priorities for the past 3 weeks: work/school/eat/read/online class/find a way to workout/team in training.

yipes ... what did i get myself into?

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