07 May 2010

For an Optimist, I'm pretty Pessimistic

opposite of the Paramore song, "For A Pessimist, I'm an Optimist," but how funny this song seems so fitting today...

"I put my faith in you, so much faith/
And then you, just threw it away..."

It's amazing how hearing someone else's perspective on the same story can just blow you away. Hearing the story of my most recent break up from my ex directly was like we were in two different relationships entirely. My feelings were betrayed. I thought we loved each other equally. But looking back, if he always put himself first, how could our relationship ever be equal? How did I miss that link?!? At least I know now that what happened did not from me. He messed up; It's his fault for feeling this bad.

I was angry, and slowly accepting the situation. Deep down, I really wanted him to win. I want to give him the answers, but he has to learn from his mistake. If he really says who he is now, he needs to act... and act now. Like Lifehouse, "Whatever It Takes."