Oscar: God makes people like you shine bright so that you may illuminate those around you. And i would be lying if i said that you have never lit up my life. So in these time where you feel down, know that those that you have shared ur illuminating lifght will be there to to brighten your life as you have done for so many. You do have a special brightness to you, an incomperable optimism. That those you affect will always be there returning your blessing. God blesses us so they we may be a blessing to others
me: thank u.:]
thanks for the reminder oscar ... our convos are always so meaningful.
my best friend also reminded me this morning (as i was so embarassingly sobbing my eyes out) about the concept of the light inside. i remember having a fire deep within. it drove me to overcome so much. throughout my years in LA, i've wondered where it went. did it burn out? or nothing is feeding it?
so in the past 6 weeks ive learned about myself:
- i fear being left behind - physically, emotionally ... with job/career, friends moving, etc.
- i have trust issues.
- im messy when busy.
- being honest with yourself is so liberating and scary at the same time.
- on that note, i hate feeling vulnerable ... but the reward feels soooooo good.
- my stubbornness causes difficulties for me to let go of things.
wow. that's a lot.
i do miss him and i really do love him. i think he may be/have been the love of my life.
moving in circles is interesting ... you cant predict where u'll meet again. but for now, my direction is different from your's. that makes me sad.
