I believe I've found the virus that has been plaguing my post-graduate life: a devalued self-worth. I didn't graduate with the best of grades, did not get into graduate schools, nor is my personal life clearly marked. I've noticed that in my work and personal relationships that I almost had to shake them and say, "DO YOU KNOW HOW GOOD I AM?," but never did ... I was too arrogant or unassertive enough to be able to stand up for myself. I always thought my work speaked for itself. As it did, but the other side did not realize it until much later.
So what is self-worth? It's an undeniable confidence in yourself and abilities. )For some, it comes off as arrogance, but with arrogance there is an underlying layer of ignorance or a sophmoric attitude. Again, I stress the key word in that last statement is confidence.) It's essentially having your own back, unafraid of not reaching your goal ... it's not settling or compromising yourself.
A close friend and I have the same struggle. We tell each other the same advice all the time. But now, I really want better for myself. I deserve better for myself and for everything that I stand for. (Knowing and realizing are 2, entirely seperate entities). This won't be an easy thing to change, because it also involves self-confidence which has come few and far inbetween lately. But at least I know I will be working on it...
'Til next time ...
