footprints

my best friend brought that concept to my attention today. he said, "we dont really know how big of a footprint we've left behind us."

sometimes i wonder how big... how deep... or if it was in the right direction. do i really make a difference in the world? in someone else's life? i guess i always look back for validation. it's been such a struggle for me to confidently give a part of myself away and trust in another to return something equally significant back.

time to make my own footprints ... hope you can follow them

just embrace it

Happy new year!
as one of my favorite people said to me as we made our early morning walk in the city to the bart-station new year's morning, ' '07 was heaven but i'm gonna be great in '08.'

"just embrace it..." catch phrase of my weekend :P
it's a great mantra for sh** that just happens or temporarily justifying the unexplainable. just accept it and move forward. lately ive been thinking more emotionally efficient than normal. it feels great because im less inclined to get stuck in a moment and keeps me moving.

in any rate, another helpful and appliciable realsimple.com thought of the day:
We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. -- Joseph Campbell
like in one of my favorite movies in '07 "knocked up": "life doesnt care about your plans. it happens anyway." so theoretically, the plans that i could make for myself are always technically thrown out the window. but mind you, that doesnt mean stop making goals. the things you want in your life wont magically, i think, it's more along the lines of: your life wont happen the way you envision it. the easier it is for you to let go of your previous vision, i think the easier you can actually live your life =)

pants on fire!

liar liar ... pants on fire.
a lie is a lie is a lie is a lie.

if i had a nickle for everytime i've been caught in a lie, i could buy myself a nice bottle of wine. yipes. i remember hiding bowls under my bed for the ice cream i "secretly" ate ... only to see the disgusted look on my parents face and taunting laughs some childhood friends gave when they exposed the ugly truth.

most lies are generated as an excuse ... to justify doing something you know is wrong, but feel compelled to do so inspite of everything. something you are supposedly suppose to grow out of. right?

well, apparently not me. at this day in age, all the so-called self improvements that i've made feel nullified because i lied. lies hurt. and i truly didnt mean to hurt a close friend. i wanted satisfaction at any cost. but that price tag is just too high ...

all in all, ive been lying to myself. justifying way too many things for the way that i operate. for the most part, things are fine. but when u get to down to the core, this way isnt at all right and inappropriate for me.

i found my new year's resolution: to be honest - with myself. that way i can be truly earnest to others. whole-hearted in all my actions. i want this resolution to stick ... forever.

... i pray for forgiveness and peace.

naps are wonderful

yet another perfectly put thought of the day by realsimple.com (which i should start subscribing to too!!):
No day is so bad it can't be fixed with a nap. -- Carrie Snow

thank goodness for the treatment tables and private rooms at work =) 15 minutes to reset, feel refreshed ... add a little caffeine and you're good to go for the long-haul!

this is why i <3 naps *^_^*

it's simple really

Put your heart, mind, intellect and soul even to your smallest acts. This is the secret of success. -- Swami Sivananda
yay for the realsimple.com thought of the day on my igoogle page.

i liked that one, especially because i know a very successful person who does that in every aspect of their life. i'd love to emulate that ... yup, uploaded onto my 'ways to improve' list.

christmas was a blur, but im glad to be apart of bringing joy to family =)

onto new year's .... resolutions? hmm, none of them i never really keep .. in any rate, i always strive for self-improvement/balance ... making it better than the last.

hopes for '08: a great future and happiness. that's all i can ask for really.

so i will keep chugging along.

focus .... breathe ... focus.

ouch, man. ouch.

i hate it when a person whom you think you can trust completely .... somehow finds their way to utterly disappoint you - to the point where you never thought it was possible they could hurt you that way.

this is why i have trust issues: it makes me think i expect too much from people.

a very good year

like a fine red wine. i like to think that 2007 was one full of emotional growth and self-actualization. i tried my best in everything i did. loved and cherished all those closest to me. took a step forward. hopefully santa will see how hard i've been working all year long & grant me a really great christmas wish! :P (hey santa, dont forget i'll be staying at grandma's this year!)

only good things to come .... i can feel it *^_^*

ps - if you arent in the christmas spirit yet ... watch "this christmas" =)